Monday, July 30, 2007

Who I am

I am Amanda. I am a 28 year old mom of 2 little girls. A 2 year old who is being tested soon for autism, and an almost 6 month old. I am also an Army wife. A very un hooah army wife. Don't get me wrong. I support our troops. I am just overwhelmed, stressed, and missing my husband, and dont have the energy to be Miss Perfect Army Wife. Sometimes I really hate being an Army wife. Same goes for being a mom. there, I admitted it. I am dealing with some post partum depression as well. I have my good days where everything is great, and Bethany will show such great improvement and give me so much hope. I will feel empowered, and feel like being left alone again to raise our kids is no big deal. I get motivated to do great things like clean the house spotless, and take school classes, and art projects with Bethany. Then I have my bad days. I will yell at Bethany, and feel like the worst mom in the world. Like the day Shea would not stop crying and I had no sleep and Bethany dumped a container of Parmesan cheese in the couch. Overall though, I love my husband and my girls dearly. My husband is truly wonderful and when he is home, he is a very hands on Dad and supportive partner. My kids are sweet and precious, and although very spirited and mischievous, I have to remember they are only 2 and 6 months. That's what kids do right? But anyway, just remember this when I am posting about how bad they are driving me nuts.